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Abuse survivor sees impact on children

Dear Amy: After an abusive 25-year marriage, in which I worked two jobs to help support the children, I finally left after my husband threatened, at gunpoint, to kill me and our son. At that time, our two girls were in college and the military, respectively.

We went to a shelter and later moved in with various family members out of state.

Eventually, my son, then 14, opted to return to his father’s home.

I lost contact with him for the next four years, due to his father’s threats.

I’ll always regret allowing him to return to hell. I later discovered his father had kicked him out and he was living with a girlfriend and her mother.

The girls survived on their own during the time I was getting my education. They started families and live successful middle-class lives. Each has two beautiful children.

At 50, I graduated into a lucrative field and brought my 18-year-old son to live with me.

While working, I supported my son through several bad ventures. He eventually matured and is now living with a good woman in a home he purchased.

My three children act very distant to me. One daughter accused me of not protecting her, and told me not to visit again.

My other daughter is cold and abrupt. My son says we can never be a family again.

I am bewildered by their anger. I have tried to be supportive. Do you think my family can ever be repaired?

Sad Momma

Dear Sad: You have worked very hard to escape your abusive marriage and rebuild your life. But – all of your children spent the entirety of their childhoods in the household you describe as “hell.” Surely the fact that they are functioning at all should be considered a triumph on their part.

You have been financially generous with your children, but money has absolutely no meaning when what they really desire is the decent childhood they were denied.

You don’t mention being willing to talk with your children about their childhoods. You might feel that their abusive and violent father is solely to blame for everything, but they look at it this way: “We had two parents; why didn’t you protect us?”

Children who witness violence experience the effects of this trauma in various ways for the rest of their lives.

It is not too late for you to reconcile, but you will have to allow each of them to express their own pain without reacting defensively.

Professional counseling would help all of you.

Dear Amy: “Cheap Childcare” was a 17-year-old complaining about being paid $8 to watch four older kids.

She was paid minimum wage for a minimum wage job, plus she received a meal.

The kids were not toddlers, so no diapers, baths, toy cleanup or bedtime stories. She was there to provide a semi-responsible presence. I feel your advice added to the entitlement this generation is steeped in.


Dear Disgusted: The marketplace should set the wage for a baby-sitter, and if she is assertive enough to ask for more, then her clients can decide if her efforts are worth it.

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